I’m sorry for your loss and I wanted to send my heartfelt condolences. I personally look forward to the promise of a future, earthly resurrection. (John 5:28,29; Isaiah 26:19) We have the opportunity to see our loved ones again, here on earth, under the peaceful conditions described at Psalms 37:10,11 where there death and all suffering will be a thing of the past. (Revelation 21:4) I hope these scriptures bring you some comfort during this difficult time.