Whats up Deejay, I miss you so much its been so much going on and I just miss us talking. Stuff changed so much and sometimes I just stay to myself me and abbey. I cant tell you enough how much I miss you asking can you go pick up my prescription or asking am I coming over today like this is really hurting my feelings I feel like I didnt get a chance to say i love you or goodbye. Iam so mad at myself that i didnt answer the phone but i didnt answer because i knew you were mad. You always did act like a big brother i remember you would say Shanice when you call my doctor you have to sound like a 'mama" because you always said i have a soft baby voice lol and i would never say out loud i would say to myself but iam a mama lol. Its been hard pretty much tough because i didnt see this coming. I cant call you i cant talk to you face to face and that hurts so much. Abbey still remember the burger place i took you too and what hurt about that is i feel like that day she was really starting to realize "my uncle dana not mean " when you was showing her how to put ketchup on her fries she was really watching you lol man these kids growing up so much jr is like your twin you and daddy twin he look so much like yall. Thats my heart i feel like he is all i have left of you he really growing up so mature he say im his favorite auntie and dont mind asking for money to be cash app to him lol kaylee act just like dalana she is a trip not scared of nothing at all lol and then theres kayden dalana had another so and he act so light skin lol lol he dont want me touching him and he dont look at me lol. Still not the same everything has changed..Grandma and warrick died after you.. its just been really sad. I love you i love you forever i miss you and daddy so much. i got your picture in the car so i always see you every morning. i be looking for a sign from you..i have had dreams of you and i needed that. in the dream you said you been tryin to call me but its old number and i remember in the dream giving you my new number it hurts so bad i can only see you in a dream or picture..